I don't want to earn my living, I want to live. -- Oscar Wilde
1. Evening walk back to our West Silvertown apartment/ 2. LFW Day 3 Balcony View in Somerset House, South Wing/ 3. Working Saturday Jubilee Place GBK lunch with Angela & Jason/ 4. End of the day selfies.../ 5. MCR>OXF trip with the Ngeows and Wongs/ 6. St. James' Park engagements/ 7. Ikley trip with Anna/ 8.Northen Quarter Sunday lunch with team Bury
My first response into why I blog is because it brings me to calm composure, I chose to see what I want, to review what I choose. I started letmerewordthis 7 years ago on the shared computer in my parents room out of a hunger to seek a world beyond what I knew. Though I have made it impossible to google find my old blogs by now, few would see the journey I've taken, from escapism, surfing endlessly for things far from myself to now (trying) to affirm the things I'm thankful for.
Words don't come easy and never have, ever since I've tried to commit to this new blog not much has been able to be produced just because I can never seem to find the words. But tonight I feel a brawl of unexplained urge to get this down.
I've been working long, gnawing hours for the past half year, and as much as I have reason to keep pursuing this lifestyle - which would make sense to the world - I am making decisions that make sense in the long run. I don't mind investing my time and doing what you have to, I am even beyond blessed that I have a paid full time job as a fashion graduate, but my deciding question is 'how am I honouring God daily' and 'are my works glorifying Him in a way that I want to?' If I were to point out what I have learnt, it's that - too often I hold on tight to believing that He will make the best of whatever situation I find myself in, but it's a fine line to make decisions and confidently pursue your path of choice, even if you have to make awkward decisions to get to it, and even if it's a heartbreaking decision. I realise that I'm not in control, but I am responsible about what I do.
The Oscar Wilde quote has been my life. I want to go on adventures, see amazing things and be a part of things that are honest and speaks to people.
Jesus said, ‘You can’t pour new wine into old wineskins.’ Matthew 9:17
Growing up, I have failed many times to commit to move on, but hopefully those times have taught me something. Sometimes, we have to let go of our plans and what is now in the past in order to embrace the possibilities of the future. Tbc.
In God we trust,