2014 I've made many mistakes, taken chances, calculated decisions to then jump once again for an oversight. I like to re-phrase it as adjusting, 調整 as it would so perfectly describe. Because diving into different waters and starting anew, as frustrating as it could be, only means trying new things, making new things; "learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing the world". Stepping into the unknown is doubtless one of the most frustrating things when there are as many reasons against as there is for a decision you needed to make, or when there seems not to be anyone to hold your hands or even support you through it. The reward is in itself; those raw, uncut feelings of education, adventure, awareness, achievement. Once you step out, you're thrown into an arena of your own expanse, you live "and more importantly, you're doing something".
I turned 23 this week, besides from feeling the disarray of inescapably being attached to that number, I'm ok, even though I still don't know how I want/ should want life to work out in 5 years time. As long as I'm doing something and I'm being me, I am at peace, I know God handles the rest. And for a right way to start another year, I jumped (rolled) out of bed at an unshameful hour for a good ol' morning hike, got brunch with some old faces (also met new friends) and buckled down for the rest of the day. Never underestimate the influence of willingness and determination, a tireless soul will find its way.
'Be at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbours and let every new year find you a better (wo)man.' --Benjamin Franklin
2015 is my year, I swear.
In God we trust